He is not available :(

Finally, I know he is not available:(

Last 2 days, we chat on MSN, he shown me his girlfriend picture, quite a beautiful girl, looks clean and gorgeous. Today, I didn't meet him in the school, I knew that he got exam today also, same time with me, but I didn't meet him.

I don't know what feeling should I hold toward this matter, should I feel sad? Happy? Disappointed? Speak honestly, I felt sad at the beginning, and then now, I feel nothing. I definitely can't be the 3 person in their love, right? I don't want to harm his girlfriend!

I don't know what to do, I think let the god decide!

God bless my family, my friends and me. Thanks!